Again and again.

I'm freaking tired with those assignments.

But without assignment, I can't even know how is my friends attitude. :)

Ya, I'm not gonna judge anyone because I know. I can't do that.

Those words are just come from my heart. Isn't try to against anyone.

May be. I'm just kinda useful for some of them.

When I was rushing for those assignments, I'm trying to ask myself.

They aren't worried about their assignment why I'm the one who worried for them?

Or maybe they think that I will take care of it? Hmm.

I'm quite lucky that I have a group of friends, which I join often. They are friendly and caring.

But, sometimes I think that I'm not in their group actually.

We went out several times in the night.

I can feel that, they were just invited me just for fun or? Erm. I don't know.

I was cycled and talked to myself. Quite stupid?

So I was planned to not joining anymore? Before I get those stupid loneliness feeling. GOSH!

Two days ago, my friend invited me for a jog after end of the class.

We went for basketball after jogging too.

Once we reach our college court. We were waited for two matches.

Ended up, its late and one of the senior ask for another match some more.

I can't even wait any longer, because it’s late and I was really headache because of the ball thrown towards my head.

Yes, I'm angry actually. But I was tried to calm down myself and walk away.

I wanna cry at the same time. But. I can't!

Once I reach home, I was cried like mad.

I miss home. I miss my friends, my family.

Everything came too sudden. Friends, study. Really stress.

Not trying to blaming anyone, that's my own thinking.

May be none of them feel it.

The tears accompanied me whole night.

Asking myself to stand stronger. Face everything myself because I'm adult.

I will call someone from my hometown than express my feeling to my new friends.

I don't know why. And I don't wanna know why.

Need time actually, Mr.Han told me that I need time to get used to it.

May be I'm too rush. I need time. :)

There's innumerable 'May be', I hope I can face it and make it disappear.

“Never Say Never”

Mum, I miss you a lot a lot.

I have diarrhea today. How hope my mum beside me.

I love my mum nag at me than no one cares me. May be is time for me to be independent.

Miss you mum, dad, sister, brother.

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥